Starting again, fresh

 Welcome to my little blog.

I've been wanting to start writing more, and have a place to collect my writings and thoughts. Sometimes it feels good to organize all the chaos. :)  I enjoy writing and I hope to pass along lessons I learn to my friends, and anyone who may need to find something uplifting to read.

Today I want to write about the title of my blog and why I chose it.

A few weeks ago, I was doing yoga in the early morning hours, just me.  Just me, by myself, with no distractions, quiet house, in my pajamas.  You know how rare that is, right? If you are like me, a busy mom, any alone time is super hard to find and is most appreciated.

The instructor was saying, "Don't be afraid to TAKE UP SPACE!".

And it hit me.  I am often trying to not to take up space.  I am often trying to please other people and just blend in. 

What good does that do for anybody?  What good does that do for myself and my family?  

And so I decided right then, I am not going to be afraid anymore.  I am not going to be afraid to take up space with my ideas, my emotions, my ways of doing things.  I want to live more loud and more myself.  I'm not sure if that makes sense. I want to be more authentic and more aware of being unapologetically myself! 

In the past, I think that I have been trying so hard to be likeable and an ideal version of a woman/mother/wife/friend.  I think I put a lot of pressure on myself to be a certain way.  And so, then I was kind of shrinking away from any risk or experiences that might open me up to find what makes me feel like me.

I feel excited to start something new and to share my experiences and what I learn along the way.  Maybe even help someone who needs it. I hope this is a place to be uplifted and feel good.  

Hope you can enjoy coming along with me. It will probably be a little bit of a hot mess.... But that's all a part of the fun.

(I can hear my kids tromping down the stairs, so I guess I better wrap this up)

♡ Britanna

Comments

  1. allisonNovember 7, 2020 at 8:20 AM

    I love this. I have spent most of my life doing the same. Trying to temper my energy so I’m not too loud or annoying, and so I can be what I think people will like more. But the older I get the less energy I have to hold that all back and I guess I’m just deciding I don’t care as much anymore. But it’s still a process and I am continually working to just let the expectations go and it is really freeing. I admire you and I can’t wait to read what you write!!

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  2. Britanna RNovember 10, 2020 at 6:16 AM

    Thanks Allison! Love how you put that. I can relate to "tempering" my energy too.

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